…… and even if I go it alone, I will be there, where I am meant to be. Home within myself, full of love, light, and the peace that will wash over me… as I can stand on my own with the knowledge that I went forward with my heart wide open, not just giving love, but being love.
I’ve spent a great deal of my life with an awareness that I wouldn’t ever have many friends. It used to be that I thought it was because I was “weird” too different and having to try to explain shit to people that they’re never going to understand- I was almost right. From that perspective. And from others perspective no they can’t understand unless they would of chosen to open their minds to be emptied of the clutter they filled it up with.
It’s always been very hurtful to always be there for others and yet no one ever there for me in that way. But here I am, with this even more profound awareness…. I am the person I seek. I can be, give, and have all of those things I wish to have in my life.
That journey of INNERstanding! To go inward and realize there is nothing outside myself that I don’t have within. The learning how to not let someone else’s bs behavior and attitude to destroy your inner peace is deep.. next level shit. So I chose to level up. To be what and who I need—-> ta mf da!!!
Yes having like minded people is amazing but when you feel out of balance it’s for a reason. Putting so much of yourself into others and not being replenished (equal give equal take) it will drain you. I had to wake the hell up and realize this!
I know I deserve the best 🙋🏽♀️ and therefore I can only allow myself to be aligned with those who are on the same vibrations of love and light.
Yes connect and make waves… yes help plant the seeds to help others awaken.. yes be present and conscious…. but don’t let anyone smile in your face pretending to love and support you and are never fucking there for you but will absolutely expect you to drop your entire world to help them work out their shit by dumping it on you.
That is not what we are here for. Everyone including me and you are like trucks for instance. Some are garbage trucks some are dump trucks filled with some kind of fuckery, and some are moving trucks moving their shit and other people’s shit from one place to another- and there are some who have that bumper sticker “yes I have a truck no I will not move you” so just run with this analogy ok.
You have to go from being dump/garbage truck to the no I won’t move you to the I have a covered bed with hidden gems I want to share but only with those who truly are about that growth life, but I’m out here leaving trails of love light peace kindness and joy for those who are aware and looking for it- that shits freely rainbowing out my arse ok!
Oooh and the mind. The rampantly destructiveness that are “thoughts” that don’t even belong to YOU.
I’ll be crazy for believing.
I am not the mind
I am not even the body
The Watcher. The Observer. The Gap between those thoughts….
And baby it’s beautiful when you realize that you’re the silence, the quiet embrace, that warm silky smooth love that caresses you at all times of happiness joy excitement fun giving celebrations birth awakenings adventures truth fearlessness and so forth. Vibe high? Yes please do!